I have to talk to my husband about using the food bank. We have some cash just I don't think we can stretch it for that long. I don't even know if we qualify because we already get EBT which would have been enough at cheap stores. I don't think he realizes how much food we go through in a month.

I'm having him call the pharmacy in the morning to see what's going on with my medication. I'm trying to practice saying out loud "I'm out of lamictal and vaguely suicidal" to the nurse (or answering machine). I don't know yet how I would put I'm hearing things because it's not like it's often it's more just today. I still haven't told my husband. Pnurse is new to me so it's kind of scary to even talk to her. I know the nurse but I've never talked to her. I don't like calling outside appointments because I feel like I'm over reacting or they'll over react. I'm fine with a sooner appointment but for that you have to say what is wrong. I'm not good with words. Hell I text my husband about MH things I can't say out loud. Even though I try to be all open and accepting to my families MH problems. Mine I can hardly speak about.

We currently have sec. 8 and medicaid which are life saving. We had to put our "new" car in our name and insure it. Now a month later it's transmission blew and so we're stuck with a broken car we're paying insurance on. I only qualify for SSI because I have never worked so I can't get SSDI.