I tried to find treatments for his hemiplegia and thought I found one until I realized it is not FDA approved. So, I told him that he should do extensive physical therapy and try to make new neural connections so he can move more freely. But, it is easier said than done.

I love him dearly. I feel that I can understand his suffering because I suffer too from an illness. He is doing well mentally. I feel happy for him. I am suffering from voices now because I stayed up too late trying to find treatments for his hemiplegia. It is ok. The voices are dying now but I realized I am worrying about issues I really can't do anything about. So, I need to stop worrying about his issues and worry about myself.


I'm taking my medication daily which really helps. I also treated myself today to something nice to eat and some lotions to make me feel good about myself. I am happy!! I hear voices but they don't bother me too much. They are loud and clear at times but when I focus my attention on other things, they are not as loud and clear. I will survive.

I was worrying too much about my new man's condition. I was worried because he is going to a spiritual healer for advice and healing. So, I thought I could find something more concrete for his paralysis. But, nothing out there is worth the money and time to do at this point. I love him and know he wants to heal from his paralysis. God bless his heart! I understand how he feels because I want to be healed also from my illness.

So, I looked all over the web for treatments of his hemiplegia and the best solution is to do physical therapy and try to make new neural connections using neuroplasticity as a means to make the body do as the mind wants. It is a interesting phenomenon but not so easy to do in reality. So, I'm hoping he can receive more innovative physical therapy treatments which are based on the idea to make new neural connections so he can move more freely. There are devices out there now but don't know if they are available here. He will have to find out himself from his doctor.

So, finding information about his condition and treatments for it made me psychotic. I know it is my fault. I need to not stress myself too much and just be happy with the condition he is in and not worry about it anymore. I accept him as he is but his going to a spiritual healer for physical healing made me worried. But, if it helps him mentally and spiritually, then there is nothing to worry about, is there? I am happy for him too! We are doing well still. I am hoping he returns here in one piece. And, I am hoping he returns in good spirits and with good mental health.