Well, so much for calling her "ex-t". I just talked to her about sending my sand tray pics which she said she will do and I also explained the real reason behind my email and she said well of course, you don't just walk away cold turkey and not have feelings anymore (or something) Especially after the car accident and I said yeah part of me wishes we'd ended over a few sessions and looked at the pictures together and talked about them and stuff and she said we still can so long story short I'm going back for a short time, I committed to finishing out the summer. That felt good in the part of me that misses 'us' so much. My logical brain, well I am rolling my eyes at myself for this.

So whoever bet that I would go back - you won haha