Thanks for the reply. This is my goal, to build up some insight into what is going on. I have some insight into certain things like my moods related to my menstrual cycle, and my typical depression symptoms. Other times I struggle with insight. Like I had little idea what was going on while in a mixed episode. It makes sense to me that insight would be lacking in mania, and that sounds tough to have to deal with those decisions after the fact. That's great you have developed some insight over the years, though. I don't think I have ever been manic, or lost 100% insight, but have been a danger to myself at times so not sure where the line is.