I've had problems with this sort of thing in the past.

Something will happen that stresses me out & I'll have the urge to just ditch everything. One time I quit my last therapist although what I was stressed about had nothing to do with her. Another time I dumped every internet website I was on, including PsychCentral, even though what I was stressed about had nothing to do with being on the internet in particular.
I presume there is some psychological explanation for this.

But I don't know what it is. I just know what the experience is like.

I also don't talk about my problems with anyone in real life. So I know what that's about as well.

I hope being here on PC is of help to you & that, in some way, you will be able to find a path to deep peace within.