Woke up feeling blah this morning, but got moving and got some cleaning done so felt accomplished and more energetic by this afternoon. I feel kind of good actually, but still like I have to ignore my thoughts or they will try to get me, if that makes any sense. I can't remember a time my thoughts didn't want to hurt me on some level, even though I never actively felt like this before this past year. It's weird, like someone took over my brain and made themselves comfortable. I am worried it's too late to get rid of them.