That hits home for me. Always wanting to be cared for, and for that person who cares for me to be solely mine. These are the people I attach to... women who are slightly older than I am and whom I find beautiful. A mother figure to try to fill the void. Sometimes I find myself doing unhealthy/risky behaviors (like having unprotected sex) not because I can't resist doing them or because I'm stupid, but because I want to tell my therapist (depending on the therapist) that I did this stupid thing and then I want them to tell me not to do those things. I'll take even that "negative" attention, because I guess to me it is just another way for someone to show that they care about me.