He doesn't think that first one. I know he'll say that she manipulated me into coming back. But she didn't. I reached out to her. I think I said this earlier, after that panic attack I had over the weekend about the car accident situation, I know I left too soon.

The 2nd one - I would never say that to him (even though I feel it sometimes) because I wouldn't be able to go through with leaving him if he said "ok, bye". But when I look honestly at myself - why would I want to stay with someone who doesn't want me to be the best me I can be?

Therapy material right there, huh. I want to be strong enough in myself to say that and mean it and back it up with action if it came to that. But I know I'm not.