Thanks 3kitty and mentalP. I'll be scanning the BP board now and hopefully making some long overdue progress on relieving my internal pain. My wife understands but canot feel the change herself. I wish she knew how precious my hope is at this point. For 41 years I was the victim of my emotions. In only three days since my major med change, I am feeling more peaceful inside. Just wanted to share the news. lamictal, Zyprexa, Trazodone and fewer clonazepam than before are changing my life.
My first tdoc therapy is Thursday. I wonder if they'll decide I don't need therapy because mu mood has improved so well. Not really. I know I have a long road of recovery ahead. Bless you all.
W