I m plain frustrated.
You see I did my undergrad in psychology from a good university about 4yrs back....so I can't be retarded. Then I had to give up studies for a while bc of a work assignment. Now my brain's got so slow that I m having a hard time even understanding a simple story book. I wanted to study my biopsychology book again...in fact I was reading neural conduction and signal transmission...the first 15-20mins were fine...after that I couldn't remember anything. Same thing when I was listening to lectures on psychopharmacology. I also wanted to read Linehan's book on DBT but I couldn't. But I must have studied more difficult things in my undergrad. I wonder what's wrong with me. Why is my brain behaving like this as if there's a signal shutdown? Will things ever get back to normal? I hear a humming sound inside my brain 24/7. It's very disturbing and tiring. My head aches and feels heavy all the time. Well I m sacrificing a lot...can't say beyond this right now...but will I get back to where I was? Maybe after 2-3years if not right now? I m willing to wait.
I feel scared. What if I never recover? What if I m permanently scarred?
Is there hope?