Thanks for reaching out WC. You have made a difference. I feel a bit better and calmer now reading your reply. I had not the best sleep but not the worst either. I locked myself in my bedroom this morning until my son left and texted him that i had left the house so he wouldn't come looking for me to scream at me in my face again. yesterday i was lying on the sofa and he was standing over me repeatedly shouting in my face that i was an awful person and should die...

I told him he's got a week to get out.

Going to get my ct scan results is so depressing. The patient waiting areas are chairs lined up on long hallways in the basement floors with no windows or cellular reception. The admins at the cancer center are above ground and all have windows. it is just the patient areas that are in the basements. Sometimes my oncologist has been 2 or more hours late. No one can tell you how long you will be waiting either so it isn't like you can go get a coffee in the meantime. you just wait and then wait some more to see the doctor to get the ct report.

Because of my past problems whenever is show up at the hospital i cross paths with half a dozen or more security officers each time. I am being watched when i go there like a criminal.