Hello kajatonas: I noticed this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral! I hope you find PC to be of benefit.

From what you wrote, it sounds as though several things have come together in your life more-or-less at the same time. And it has caused you quite a bit of confusion & uncertainty with regard to how to proceed. You mentioned you're receiving some psychotherapy. I think that is a good place to work through all of this.

There is probably little I can offer in the way of suggestions with regard to the new job opportunity that has become available to you. Your dilemma is, of course, one that many people face from time-to-time. Do you leave the security of your present job to strike out in a new direction? Or do you stay with what's familiar? I guess, if you have a job that is secure & that pays well, that in-&-of itself is something to celebrate. Many people don't even have that let alone the opportunity to go to work in another country. It's certainly nice to have choices... even if coming to a decision with regard to them is difficult.

You mentioned the pain in your heart regarding the young woman you met. Here are links to some articles, from PsychCentral's archives, on the subject of how to mend a broken heart:

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/chang...-broken-heart/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/12-way...-broken-heart/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/help-o...om-heartbreak/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/how-to...ver-a-breakup/

My best wishes to you...