What are you so depressed about?

Can you answer this question?
I can't seem to. I hate when people say this to me.

There are many reasons I have to be depressed. because I lost a year of my life in madness in institutions and now I'm left with nothing but being stuck in my parents basement.

On the other hand I have a lot to be grateful for and not depressed. I've been back home for over 3 months and it seems I am just digressing from when I first got back home.

I'm going to the shore this Sunday. I'm excited and maybe it will bring me alive again.

I don't know I don't feel Alive that is how I would describe this depression.

And I feel like these meds are making it worse. Particularly the 20mg of zyprexa that proc refuses to decrease.

I was put on lexapro about 2 months ago and I seem to be doing worse on it.. go figure.