Thanks again everyone.... you are all so wise... it is true... he hasn't been exposed what I "had" in my life... I protected him.....

Well... my wake up screaming nightmares... were always a part of his life... because... even thru... two doors... they woke him up too...

his friends... were really terrific.. because with sleep overs...and vacations... they... never made fun... or gossiped about me..

but then again... I was important in their life too...

so maybe... all is good....