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Originally Posted by Tucson
Let me give this a try. Do you have a history of depression? Why are you on your meds in the first place? There must be a reason. Is this the first time you have doubted your diagnosis? In the past was your depression without meds getting in the way of you functioning day to day? Have the meds worked for you in the past? What happened in the past when you attempted to get off your meds?
This is all that I can think of. I suppose clinical depression can come and go for some.
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In all honesty, I was doing a bad thing. My behavior had changed.
My wife, who, BTW, is a Dr in nursing, but specialized in heart failure, knows nothing about phych illnesses. Sent me to the shrink.
She set an appointment for me at her hospital. I'm sixty years old at the time.
I thought we were going to have a conversation. Like an analyst on TV.
I've never being to one.
But all I got was questions. In twenty minutes flat, I had bipolar one.
It's not all his fault. I denied doing what I was doing.
Admitting it, would have had enormous repercutions in everything in my life.
So I said no. It's also my fault.
I took the pills everyday. Until this last week.
My self diagnosis points to clinical depression or MDD. I have been manic too, yes, but artificially enhanced. Never expontaneously.
Depression has been with me since I was thriteen years old.
Due to a drastic change in my life.
My actual doctor took the other doctor's diagnosis and ran away with it.
Only she told I didn't have bipolar 1. She knows about the enhancement.
Then told me that nothing you do under any influence, counts for a bipolar diagnostic.
We are going to have a heart to heart next appointment.
Thank you for your observation. Cheers.