My previous T's vacations were completely fine.
But this time is much worse...
It's the 5th day (still 27 days left) and from the first day I feel really exhausted, my muscles are weak, I have headaches from time to time etc. It's hard to do anything when I feel like that. And of course I'm worried that maybe it's not psychosomatic but something "real". Probably tomorrow I'll go and do a blood test, but the truth is that I often felt like that when something emotional happened.

Now, I also have a lot of emotions but I'm not sure if it's better to focus on them and feel them (you now - cry a lot etc.) or try not to think about this at all.

Generally, I feel bad that T left me for so long time and I'm not in a good shape now and I have no idea what to do :-/ At the same time she is (probably) happy and relaxed with her family. Unfair!!