Thanks everyone for commenting. I'm just stuck in this right now. Think the complete lack of sleep is making everything so much worse. I don't have anywhere to turn and that a hard part. I couldn't take meds now if I wanted to. I can't afford to go to a doctor. Then I wouldn't be able to afford the meds if they gave me any. I only see my T once a month if I'm lucky. And I haven't been able to pay him for awhile. I don't know. I worry so much. I don't want to make any more bills I can't afford. I'm about to lose my car if I can't find a job soon. But now I'm to the point where I'm terrified to leave the house. I have to get up early to take a test for a class I take online. I have to go to the campus for my test. I'm so terrified about leaving the house I can't study. I know I'll fail this class. I'm just a failure.