This post really isn't a debate about God.... it is simply... to express some feelings that I have been having lately...........

To share.... how terribly... terribly... difficult life has been for me lately.....

For me... my faith in God is very strong... and there are times in my life I feel that He wants me to change my life.. to change my path... sooooooo.. at that time

He speaks to me... well He starts out "speaking softly to me"... then if I don't listen... "He speaks louder"... and then when I don't listen..."He shouts at me"... and then when I don't listen... He pushes me.....just as a good Father should do...

And lately... I just haven't been understanding... not being stuborn.. just.. not understanding...

sooo... events like dominoes... have been happening in my life.. allowing me... to "have" to change....

these events have not been "nice"... and it has been extremely.. extremely tough......

I continuely... pray... for strength... for courage... for... a listening ear...

I.... am... so ... very... tired...

sooooooo... if you would... say a prayer for me... that I can continue on.....