Well to put it "lightly", I believe I was happiest when I never use to think about it. And things started to get out of hand (still is) when I was diagnosed and the late night internet search would keep me from doing the things I love..little things

Sure, I have a broader perspective on it, just not useful with my recovery.

Avoidance like ignoring it? Well then it's fine.

Sorry, brain fart now. Got go