I'm good today.

I saw my Support Worker today. She thinks I'm manic cause I spent over £100 on Amazon. I don't feel manic. I see my worker in 2 weeks then my Psychiatrist a week later then my CPN 2 weeks after that. I have made a list for my psych appt. I'm generally in his room 5-10 mins then that's it for another 6 months. But this time round I'm promising myself I'm going to be honest with him instead of lying saying everything is fine. Got about 20 points to talk about ooops!

Meant to be out tonight with a friend but she has rescheduled it for tomorrow. Now she has invited another friend who I like but I kinda just wanted it to be the 2 of us. But hey ho. So I'm out on Thursday at 5:30pm for a meal and a catch up.

I kinda feel like I'm not dealing well with things at the moment. I'm just heading it all. Mum had a sever stroke in Nov I've lost my Mum in a sense as she can't talk and isn't really coherent when she attempts to talk. She lost her ability to walk too. She's getting there but progress is majorly slow. I love her to bits and sometimes I cry cause I've lost her. My Dad isn't much fun compare to my Mum. I've put them both through a lot with only just being diagnosed at 25. I lost my job and they supported me through thick and thin. I'm doing my best to support them but sometimes I'm so exhausted I feel like a bad Daughter. Then I've let everything go and ice lost interest in things I use to be good at like volunteering. I had a kinda life now I am just existing. I'm not even living I'm just here in my own wee world