I know, its been a very long time since I have been posting here....but I do hope noone is too upset about that.....I just didnt know where to turn.....I have had suffered some great losses recently...but most of all loosing my best friend of 30 plus years.....My gram.....and since then, it seems I am finally filling with anger....all of us....like it is fitrating throughout all ....and I dont even know if that makes any sense.....but Im very afraid of this person....this anger.....is usually forced down.....overidden sort of.....and just seems more an more....im loosing me and becomming her......sorry....thanks for listening...