I guess I'm sort of responsible for not really learning much at school

yes I was really ill, yess I was in hospital a lot, and yes, my school finally wouldn't take me back because I'd missed so much

but when I had the chance (or rather, when I was able to), I decided I didn't want to learn, I didn't want to do anything

that's no one's fault but my own

I don't regret it

perhaps I used to, when my life maybe meant something, but now I don't care