I am sad,worried and anxious today.I pretended I was ok.Really I felt lonely.I saw attractive men,and was full of desire but felt that I didn't stand a chance of them being interested in me.It made me feel like I was impotent and will never experience love,intimacy sex again.It hurts,it's painful.I coped but not well,I faked happiness but I am not happy.I only have my niece but I can't talk to her about this she is a lot younger than me and we don't talk about my love life or lack of it.