I am so very sorry for your losses.....

I too... have had simliar losses .... in the past few weeks.....

my anger... that I usually... "stuff".... into my alters.... I let... them express it on the board here... and that has helped... releasing some of it...

Some of my anger... got released.. with my son - who did deserve it... but I usually don't express it..

And some... got expressed at my friend today... who... also deserved it...but I usually "stuff" it....

But... I have found myself... being very angry....and... just out of nowhere... when something... goes wrong... screaming... I am in the house alone... I don't "consiously"... think about screaming.. it just comes out...

Maybe acknowledging that you are angry... that it hurts... would help.. that you have a "right" to be angry....

wish.. I could help....