Since h doesn't want to hear about my worry, you guys get to. (He's ignoring me anyway) I'm worried that t is going to be mad at me tomorrow when I tell her I can't commit to 2+ more months right now like she asked me to, even at a reduced rate. I am afraid h would make good on his threat to leave. Maybe it's going to happen anyway but I'm not prepared to force matters. I never should have called to ask for my pictures. Why couldn't I have just left well enough alone???

Well I did realize something anyway. See my latest dear t. But I'm not ready to do anything about that, either.

Can I just go hide in a cave for awhile??

What the hell am I doing?