Today I tried 5 minutes of mindfulness with focusing on my breath and looking out of the window (I have a view on mountains) and it was OK and relaxing. However just an hour later something relatively minor happened and I almost began crying and was very upset. It happens almost always - the meditation /relaxation is fine (unless I feel demons) but as soon as I return to reality I get more anxious, irritated or depressed than before!
I wanted to be brave but now I really don't know....