I slept weird last night. Also I spent a better part of the night reading very old couch threads-especially the ones where I was in therapy. It was very weird going back and reading about the attachment I had with that therapist, all the anxiety I have experienced due to different things, how emotionally immature I was back then, how distraught I was over the termination, and also getting a little nostalgic. Lots of people who were on the couch back then left. And just generally how much the forum changed. I must say, I certainly reminded myself reading back why I don’t want to be in therapy anymore. I was probably more attached to that therapist than anyone else in my life back then . That was some pretty strong maternal transference going on! Wow! Never again.