I found it both very interesting and very unsettling recently to look back on some of my old e-mails I'd sent to ex-T and ex-MC. With ex-T (and at times ex-MC), I realized how I sounded almost submissive to her in e-mails, like, as in: "I know I screwed up in e-mailing you, and I bothered you on vacation, so I understand why you wouldn't write back." The difference in my tone of how I write to her vs. how I write to current T is quite striking. Also the difference in how I wrote to current T when I first started seeing him vs. now--not sure if that's more about healthier dynamics in my therapeutic relationship with him (vs. ex-T or ex-MC), my growth in therapy, or some mix of the two.