I appreciate the rest of the discussion on said prev couch about my h and t stuff. H certainly seems more relaxed since our fight the other night, but we're really not talking much, either. Last evening he was glued to the tv and fell asleep in front of it as usual. I'm beginning to see the fight we had as a good thing though because I can feel myself growing as a result - yes, while it's true I capitulated and told him I wouldn't do the 2 months she asked me to commit to, I did stand my ground some anyway and tell him I'm going today and next week (maybe a 3rd session if we don't get done in 2) because analyzing my sand trays as a whole with her is important to me. I want to write the story that they tell, for ME.


Ideally yes I would want to do the 2 months or whatever, but for now, I would rather get h into marriage counseling with me and try to salvage our marriage if there's enough left of it to salvage. I'm feeling very unsure. But I still love him, am not ready to just give up.


Gotta head to work. Later, couchies!