As everyone else here does (I’m guessing) I have to fight the demons inside my head on a daily, hourly, basis. The demons planted in my mind (and body) by malicious, cruel “people”.

I do not live in the USA.

I find it distasteful at best that I also have to fight the mental “health services” this side of the pond to receive even a basic level of “care”.

As a good friend of mine said, it’s as if they are the enemy

I’m tired and sickened by the battle.

I’ve been labelled “Avoidant” .. whether or not there may be any accuracy in that label I’ve been so traumatised by doctors and therapists that I now avoid them as much as I can to stay alive. Part of my brain wants to stay alive, I suppose. But another part is actively “suicidal”.

I don’t know why I’m posting. I haven’t been completely rejected by the mental “health services” but their sub standard and patronising approach sickens me.

I do not wish to hear from anyone who wants to attack me or my experiences. I do not wish to be invalidated once again.

I’m not a nasty combative person but I’ve been attacked for too long by too many people (mostly irl) for no good reason. And I will no longer tolerate being ANYONE’s whipping bear.

If I hadn’t been so naive at the age of 20 I would have made a similar statement to my parental units and probably cut them out of my life completely.

Hugs to anyone who accepts them. I wish for peace and healing to all here,