Thanks for sharing, Fharraige!

I don't have Borderline Personality Disorder, though when I have broken up with guys (this is way before my marriage, in college and high school), it usually was final for me, too. I do remember a few guys contacting me asking again and again what happened. I sort of recall never giving them a real firm answer. I think that drove them crazy. I guess I can understand why. Really, I broke up with them for the teeniest of reasons, though I was never in love with any of those guys.

The first guy I actually fell in love with was a guy I met in my senior year at college. I must confess that I stole him from my best friend, who was soon after a "former" friend. He was obviously not innocent either, though I can at least say I was sort of manic at the beginning. He didn't have a mental illness. Anyway, I was with him for over 2 years. I never broke up with him. I moved with him clear across the country to where he was studying for his PhD in Chemistry. He broke up with me. He simply stated he no longer loved me anymore. I was devastated! For me, when I finally do love (I don't fall in love easily), I sort of love forever. It's been over 23 years since we parted. I'm not in love with him anymore, but there is a special place for him in my memories.

I only ever thought of breaking up with my husband once. It was over 22 years ago, when we were still just dating. The thought only lasted about 2 hours, then I totally changed my mind. Since then, I have never even once ever thought about leaving him. Luckily, I don't think he's ever thought of leaving me, either. I love him more than I could love anyone, really. He's wonderful!

There were a few guys I had casual sexual relationships with while I lived in Asia, in between my first love and my husband. They were not boyfriends. Just guys to hangout with and have sex with. None of them were probably upset by our parting. I wasn't. I was mostly manic during that period.