He doesn't even have dates yet, I just know a week in August... and it's gonna be at a place where he is "stepping away from life" and no phones, computers etc so I wont be able to have any contact. This will be the first week since we meet 16 months ago we don't talk in some form. I'm freaking out already

he knows it too, he is concerned about me. he knows how i get. I almost broke down yesterday but opted to just stop talking about it instead. He knows some of why Its hard for me... the basic stuff I've told others, but there is one thing I've told no one and I'm unsure I should tell him. After how bad things went in May, I just proceed with caution with feelings related to him talk.... plus it's ridiculous anyway. I'm so overwhelmed but I don't wanna be.

His boss offered to see me while he is away but I can't do it, I can't go there and speak to someone knowing he isn't there, I'll be too emotional and I can't let her or anyone know who bad I struggle. He wants me to think of things he can do to make it less painful or tough for me. Sigh....