I use to be good with a routine. About a year ago an event happened that sent me spiraling into a ptsd hell.

My routine was gone totally. I’m still in a struggle . I clean a whole room a day which is just ocd, and make dinner but beyond taking a showing and doing my eyebrows its out of reach. I don’t like going out into the world unless I have too.

Today a friend wanted me to go shopping and lunch , no no no .. I finally really tried to get her to understand ( again) that some days I just can not hangout or be real talkative. I don’t think she even understands 29% of what I’m trying to say and that’s okay , I can only do so much.

Some days I have to just do the 15 timer trick.. get up and work on X for 15 mins and take a break... wash rinse repeat.

I have no set bedtime or wake up .. I have insomnia so I sleep when I can and for as long as I can no matter what time of day or night.