i no longer want to be a child , i cant let that be me i have to act like an adult too much abuse when i was a child i feel dirty even thinking of my childhood thinking if i do my mother will telepathically know i let slip about her abuse of me and the others who abused me i feel sick sick at the child like toys or the Disney dvds i have want to hurt myself because i let this happen i let myself be a victim of there lust want to take everything child like and burn it takes it out the house and burn it in the garden maybe even burn her as well
they took things that where innocent and made them dirty and i feel so sick right now i feel so angry at them i cant deal with this at all i want to die and no one can help me