I feel like two sides of my brain are fighting: a self destructive/impulsive side and a rational, healthy side. I do not feel at home in my own mind. It is tiring, and confusing. I feel like I should just be able to stop this other side and have normal thoughts. This is especially hard to come to terms with when I otherwise feel "fine", but keep letting these thoughts in. Can anyone relate? Told my pdoc I felt "weird" when he said I seemed better and less depressed. When he inquired further I just could not explain what I even meant. Not sure if there is a point to this post, but thanks for reading!