My friend of 27 years...

I guess... I am so upset.. I really don't know how to even express this.. my upset caused me a binge/purge.. and now I am angry with me.. for being upset..

I am up for renewal of my SSDI disability... and my pdoc.. and my T.. say I cannot work... so all should be fine...

But in the review.. is a paperwork for a 3rd party to fill out... who better than my best friend... right????

She sees my struggles... knows.. that I cannot take care of a dog.. right now... cannot go to church due to anxiety..

In other words... all she has to do is put that on a piece of paper..

But.. she won't...

This has happened before... she will fill out the paperwork.. in such a way.. that... to me it is unbelievable... it is like and "who is That????"

I don't know.... she still after all these years ... cannot accept that she has a "mently flawed friend"... as she thinks of it...

It is a reflection on her...

after the last time.. I did talk to her about it... and she promised to put down the truth... but.. she just couldn't...

soooooooo... I am just so angry.....................