That's unfortunate, but I'm the same way.

For me--and this may not be the case for you--I think part of the problem is my very negative past experiences. I've gotten bullied and backstabbed all my life, so now I'm just put off by getting close to people in general, even though I know that most people have matured by now. (I'm 27.) So I keep my distance.

To elaborate, though: Not all of my backstabbings had involved BP, but usually they have (because I'm psychotic or in an episode and acting weird). When I wasn't in an episode or psychotic, my poor social skills ruined things for me.

I think the poor social skills are related to the after-effects of BP, though. Like, because I was often in an episode, I never developed the proper social skills to carry on with life. So when I was finally stable for perhaps a few months at a time, I had no social skills to keep me afloat.

Now, I were to break up with an SO, my reasons would likely be tied to some sort of psychosis (like Miguel'smom).