Well since I recognize that I am perhaps the master of giving advice yet can't follow my own... I thought I would chime in here. In my case I think that Rapunzel hit the nail on the head. I think for me, based on conversations with my counselor, I do not take action because I feel I need to suffer. I carry the guilt of my divorce and for other terrible decisions that I have made. I have not been able to look forward because I am too busy looking back.

For me my life has changed so incredibly because of stupid decisions. I keep thinking over and over, IF I wouldn't have done this, or if I would of done that then things would be better for me.

I think the other thing going on is that depression robs you of the energy required to take affirmative action. I know for me at times it has been difficult even to do the simplest of tasks. Intellectually I know what needs to be done, I just can not bring myself to do it.

I also feel that Rapunzel's comment on intertia is very valid. I know for me that I have gotten into a habit of getting by day by day and not looking into the future. It takes a GREAT DEAL of effort and energy and positive attitude to overcome this inertia. I have been much better at this the last week..... cutting back on smoking, exercising, taking meds.... sleeping right, keeping the house neat... little things that are helping me to overcome the inertia.

Sometimes I think posting on this board is a mixed blessing for me. On the one hand it has offered support and advice that I need, and the people have all been wonderful. On the other hand, I am beginning to feel that it is an escape. An escape from me doing the things that I need to get done.

I will try and waen off the board little by little, but I will not go away.