I can understand wanting an AP. You want to feel better, of course. But here's the thing...AP's truly do have major side effects. Weight gain, tremor, extreme fatigue, and some even claim that AP's can cause permanent brain damage in certain ways. So if you don't really need an AP, I think that it's great not to be on one. I don't have psychotic symptoms and I wish I could go back to the very first day an AP was prescribed to me, because I'd say no way.