I don't know if you noticed the links to Project Hope and Beyond, in some of the articles I gave you in reply to other posts. But that is another forum website, sponsored by PsychCentral, that is dedicated to individuals who struggle with unrelenting depression and anxiety. I know you wrote that medication has worked well for you in the past. However, you might still want to take a look at this other website:

Project Hope & Beyond

I wish you well...