Oh, yeah, the fainting is due to “prolonged bed rest.” Last summer I had 5 burglaries — and my computer was stolen from my den. I was up in my wheelchair for a good 16-17 hours a day in the den, writing away. When I lost my computer I retreated to my bedroom and bed. Almost one year ago. I have blackouts about twice weekly and when I fall face-first (or skull-first — I sustained a six-stitch wound on the crown of my head two days ago) I’ve had eye socket and skull tissue enter my brain.

I hate being stable. I’m on new meds and have had doses of ‘old’ meds increased. I feel like adjusting my meds myself.

I don’t feel anything.