I'm upset.... just came off the phone to my Twin. She is my rock. We fell out she was drunk and was being sarcy. Snywsts long story short she wanted me to call her. She's been seeing a counsellor through her work since March 2017. It started off as a few sessions as she was having boyfriend trouble then it's escalated. She's never once told me.

She says she thought of killing herself in Dec 2017 cause my Dad was very nasty to her. He said she and I caused my Mum's heart attack and stroke (obviously we didn't but he blamed us as he normally does). He's never said to me I caused her health problems but he told my Sister (Twin). She says her ex boyfriend talked her down from doing anything. I'm like why haven't you turned to me. She's protecting me and I'm protecting her from bipolar.

I said I worry that the bipolar hits her and my Nephew. She has a higher chance being my identical twin. I'm the only one in the family with a diagnosed mental illness.

We cried a lot. We were on the phone for an hour and a half and it's 1:45am. We are all stressed and wired cause Mum is home and is still unable to communicate with us like she use to. My Sister and I are mourning the lost of our Mum as it looks like she's not here half the time.

I just want my Mum back she's only 62. Still young. I want to do the stuff we use to do together but that's never going to happen.