Thanks for your thoughts. I'm sorry you've had such a rough winter/spring.

Well I don't think she's wrong that I need to be more in touch with the state of our and my finances, I do need to be. but it was just the what felt like endless grilling about it all, and it started to feel really attacking of my h, you know, saying he isn't a good provider and stuff, I dunno. It just rubbed me the wrong way. he's been there for me through some really bad times. Maybe you're right too. Everybody's got such good points and insights. It's like partly everything we're all saying maybe. I do respect her a ton, and so I listened to everything she said. I just don't agree with it all. She's not any more perfect than anybody else in this crazy world.

Yeah she can be very direct and well pushy especially on this topic. I will say I felt rather judged yesterday and I don't like feeling that from her one bit. I know this is MY stuff, that when I feel judged by her, I also feel like she thinks I'm a stupid idiot. Oh well.

I'm just trying to work out all of this.