Like Fuzzy Bear, I can relate to you. I have no infected fingers either.

When I try to do too much, I lose touch with myself, stop taking enough care of myself, have less compassion for myself and then find myself suffering abandonment depression. I then find all my energy goes into reconnecting to my inner child and self love and care. Then I have to recover from the exhaustion and deal with waking up and dealing with nightmares that I can't remember. (I can go to bed having worked hard to improve my mental health, to wake up anxious and in a low mood, Like I have today)

Much love and hugs to you Carmina