I hadn't seen my T in a year since she went into private practice. With all the legal stuff & stress I am dealing with it what should have been a very simple divorce & really needed to start seeing her again as the legal stuff is just starting & it is going to get nasty. So I had my first return session today. We talked about everything that has happened this last year & then got into the legal stuff I'm going through & the stress level it causes. She remembered I had eating issues (lack or eating) triggered by stress. I am still sble to eat healthy amounts of food though I have been losing weight.....luckily I have enough buffer weight that it will not cause problems unless it really does get worse as the legal battle gets worse....but my whole life is on such a better place than it was before.

Trying to clean some if my house before making a trip back to the state where I hired a lawyer to protect my marriage assets has been non-stop work. A friend who is caring for my dogs came over to get the rundown & brought me dinner because all I took time for was to cut up a big tomato for lunch. I actually made up my chicken I bought into curry chicken salad & made my crook neck squash into a creamed squash casserol (I can freeze what I don't eat until I get home in 2 weeks.

I am glad that between the stresses it will be a working vacation on the ranch where my horse is. Rebonding with my mare & riding her for the first time after all her training & mucking stalls in the desert heat will definitely be exercise. A good way to wear off the stress & keep in shape.

It was good to talk about the weight issue I have. All my life I remember not wanting to get out if shape like my mom did....it's just that at times it can get out if control when there is a majir stressor in my life.

Evrn when I was pregnant back in the late 70's I swam almost every day....didn't slliw junk food even in the house & I was downhill skiing thebweek before I had our daughter. The stress of knowing I had to have a c-section because she was too big for my small body to have naturally scared me. I had never had a surgery before. I ended up losing what little weight I gained & ended up only weighing 2 pounds more than she did & left the hospital wearing my normal cloths. Have always been weight conscious & daily racquettball games with the guys I worked with kept it going. There just was no buffer ehen a long term stress hit that didn't go away like midterms or finals.

Will see how this mess in my life goes. I have already started losing weight but tjis time I am able to eat just a lot less.