Dear Ian,

What do you want from us? You can believe what you choose to believe. I have told you that I care and I do. Are you calling me a liar? I have never lied to you.

On this site, as well as with anything else in life, you get out of it what you put into it. Your extreme negativity might be the disease, but you have to make some effort to fight it. We can't do that for you as much as we would like to. You have to start caring.

It is hard to start caring about yourself. Maybe an easier place to start would be to start caring about other people. One noticeable difference between you and someone else who has come here and told us about a deadline is that she gives back to other people here, while you present us with all the evidence that the whole world is against you and you can't win, but you refuse to even fight. Why not try fighting for someone else if you can't fight for yourself?

Look around you, Ian. We are all here because we hurt and we need support and comfort and somebody to care. Most of us find it therapeutic to have a chance to help someone else besides receiving help and friendship from others. How do you think it makes people feel when they chat with you and write to you and all you do is call them liars?

Ian, you are a good person and you have so much potential. Please give yourself a chance. And, we can't do everything. You need to get treatment for this disease that makes you so negative, steals your motivation and robs you of hope. Please see somebody who can do something about it. It's your life and I have to accept that you have every right to make your own choices, and I have to live my life no matter what you choose to do, but I sincerely hope that you will choose to live. By choosing to live I mean more than just staying alive. Get out there and do something with your life. It's okay to start small.
{{{{{{{{{{{{{Ian}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
There's a hug, and I mean it. If you were here in front of me I would give you a big hug. If I didn't care, why spend all this time trying to help you when I really ought to be getting some work done?
-Wendy

<font color=blue>Life is filled with tragedy; if you let it overwhelm you, you cannot enjoy life's innocent pleasures. -Robert Heinlein</font color=blue>