Yes, and I get scared too when I put the pills in the boxes; I'm always afraid I'll mess up.

I now take Lamictal, Abilify, low dose of Zoloft, klonopin, propranolol, Mobic (pain), methadone (pain), and a heartburn med, don't remember what it's called. I took Seroquel until recently, but I told my pdoc I wanted off it because it's yet another AP and at that point I was only taking it for sleep, not therapeutically, like before, so I'm taking a night klonopin as well as the morning, for sleep.

I'm afraid of what it has and will do to my brain. My memory is AWFUL, I mean really really bad. Just yesterday I realized I forgot something utterly fundamental that happened in May, but I forget within the same day, from one day to the next. I just wonder what I would be like cognitively without the meds. I'd probably need far less espresso, I'd be more awake, better memory, more alert, etc. But I'm also deathly afraid of what might happen if I were to get off of them...