I have been anything but the responsible parent. I am 5 years sober from a life that I regret to my core. I feel like it's too-little-too-late to be a good parent, but I love my daughter more than anything. My depression grows by the day, and my ex has systematically dismantled me in the eyes of my daughter. It is so painful that other parents disregard me as a non-issue, and make my daughters decisions for me. I have recently restarted therapy, and I am hoping to find a way through this pain.