Hello everyone!

In late 2016 my ex of 4 years broke up with me and I didn't handle it very well, I was very sad a lot of the time and even got into asking online psychics for answers because I was so distraught. I stayed very sad from December 2016 to February 2017, but then a male friend of mine, I will call him Adam, started talking to me a lot, buying me gifts, and eventually our relationship also got sexual. We stayed this way for a while and even though I was kind of afraid to get closer to him because I didn't want anything serious, he was ALWAYS around and I needed that comfort. He would always call me, text me, buy me gifts, send me pictures, ask me to go places with him, etc. There have been a ton weird things he did along the way, such as him calling me his girlfriend to his parents after only talking to me for a month and hinting that he wants to have children with me. Despite all the things I found weird about him, I still kept talking to him because when I would try to stop I would get very lonely and he was always constantly contacting me, making it easy to fall back into our normal routine.

Now it's July 2018 and I've tried to talk to other guys during the year, even though Adam gets really upset when I do, he says that it's fine to "get the feelings of wanting someone else out of my system". I have told him time and time again that I don't really see him as more than what we are currently. I want to get out of this rebound relationship with Adam but I am scared to lose him permanently because of how comfortable I am with him and the fact that he has become like a best friend to me over the year as well, considering we do almost everything together. Right now my heart just doesn't feel he is the one for me, and I don't have the same feelings for him that I have had for every boyfriend of mine in the past. I care about him and love him, but I don't see myself falling in love with him and being happy in a marriage with him.

I appreciate any and all advice, thank you for your time