Thanks LT. It's a start. I didn't yet say anything about wanting to continue therapy. I think I'm going to give the CoDA meetings a shot first, as well as working through this book, for awhile and see if that helps me make some more changes before I go back to therapy for any length of time. I'm really very humbly realizing what a mess I still am. But you know, I guess it's a better mess than before therapy. Before therapy I was such a mess I couldn't even identify individual parts of the mess ha. Like a 'yarn ball' made up of individual strands of yarn that are so entangled you can't tell there are individual strands but it's useless because you can't make anything out of it. Well, now my strands are untangling and I'm starting to be able to see them. Some are being pulled out and discarded, some are being tied together with others to make a solid and stronger piece that can be woven into a life. Or something like that.

I'm really looking forward to seeing t again this coming Thursday. And the week after that. That's as far as I want to go right now, until I've done some codependency work.

I'm so thankful for the couch being here.